fRienDs!!

feeling sianzz after studying the whole day!!! exam is coming again!!hate it..hate it!!!:(
after visitng yf's blog on 'friends' topic, he is quite true that true friends are not easy to find, even if u are studying abroad...
when i was in primary school heading to secondary,i was happy to change school because i like to make new friends....i wanted to free myself from them..i dunno y..not because i dun like them, just because i wanted to start a new life...what i mean is 'a whole new life' with new friends, new environment, everything is new.....
until now...i am in university level, one of the reasons i chose to study in singapore is to experience new things as i have never studied abroad before...NOT because i like singapore...i'll never fall in love with Singapore..haha:)
the experience is not as good as i expected,well....it's good to let me suffer here since i really have a good life in malaysia...^^
last time,i used to think that i could study abroad..much further than singapore..because i like freedom,personal space...that's what i thought when i was still in secondary school(not because i dun like to stay with my parents),i just wanna have so called 'solitary' life..without friends or family to depend on...start having new friends in brand new environment...haha:)..sounds weird,right??
like i had just experienced in the usa..i am very happy with my adventure in the USA..i chose to join the Work n Travel program alone is to start depend everything on myself!!!!i dunno why do i have these kind of thinking...even myself couldn't explain that...but from the program,i 'm quite lucky to get to know a group of good and crazy 'zakar' friends...^^other than that,it's really an eye-opening..

i hate to be the person like joining something just with particular friends only..like somebody ask me to join something,i wil ask my other friends to go along but i dun want his/her's decision affects my judgement..because i want to make decision without be influenced by others but sometimes i just turn up to be like this(some circumstances lah)..haha:)Learning to make decision is a vast 'lecture'..^^
do i like to be 'alone'????NOP!!! i dun...not at all..i just want to experience something new by myself..explore the things that i dunno by myself...solve the problems myself..."it's part of the process of growing,right?"
although i like to meet new friends, i will really cherish my old friends because they treat me good from their heart....how 'xing fu' it is when somebody take care of u and concern about u(i used to be that 'xing fu' ppl)..haha:)
are the ppl getting older will have difficulties in making friends???or they just dun make friends from their heart??or they just look for friends that have same status or identity with them??or because of the society pressure that make them dun believe in others???somebody treat u good with purpose!!i hate those kind of ppl(especially guys)..it's kind of pathetic with these circumstances happen...what is the trueness and meaning of friends???
i think friends are to share and to be shared...share ur happiness and sadness with ur friends and dun keep ur friends as ur very own friends...share friends with ur friends...what a beautiful and wonderful life it is if???
"world without strangers"
everyone makes friends from their heart!!! do u make friends with ur heart??