sTreSs!!

pressure comes from everwhere...even while i was playing badminton,it'd be quite relaxing,but i feel stress. Maybe it's because tat i know someone is aiming.y??because i am such a lousy player and my partner is great.the only condition for them to win us is to shoot all the shuttlecock to me,because most probably i'd miss it..by knowing that,i tell myself,"u must get through all these..u must win them..u must show them u would not miss it anymore!!"with that, i really tried all my best..smashed whenever i had a chance to do so..i would say sometimes it's good to have such pressure..finally we won,of course not because me,it's all my partner's effort,he won the game!!
playing badminton is just a game for me,i can't see how important is to be won or lose.but for someone,they rank winning is the first gain for them in a game.what i feel that the importance of the game is the process...do we enjoy in the game??have i put all my effort??do i improve??that's what i consider...win or lose..for me,it's not important at all!!!!
Stress from studies!!!doing projects,assignments,presentations,test,exam!!!!it's so stress!!sometimes,it's good to go shopping to release stress!!!haha....went to clementi and bought two pants..so happy!!(wasting money anyway)
but,stress comes back again when i am alone in my room sitting in front of my laptop..i know i have to do my projects again!i have to re-edit my reports again!got to revise for my test again!!"hao fan ar"..my face got a lot of pimples le..aih....
At this stressing moment,tzu chi got a '宿 舍 关 怀 '"care for hostel's students" program..i am the one to be concerned..chit chatting with them for a while..and got a goodie bag too!!really thanks for their concern,it's so warm..
i am still learning and digesting buddha's words...it's so meaningful..
"the future is illusion,the past is a memory.Protect the loce of this moment.Focus on your immediate task."
"don't close yourself off.You should love others first then others will love you."
there are so much things for me to learn...get rid of pressure is another knowledge...i want to be a truthful buddhist..i hope i can..i am trying to...(really practising my bad temper)